I won't underestimate the power of healing!

Isaiah getting his x-ray and he did GREAT

Playing grocery store with Lane

Our first ride to drop Caden at school

These 2 are slowly learning to share, SLOWLY

Hide and seek moment...

Adjusting to sharing but still remains the PRINCESS

They love Donald and LOLO

This kid is my heart!!!!

Update! Here we are…in the midst of our beautiful chaos but I feel pretty happy this week because how crazy that adding another child to the mix is what has motivated to me ensure our 6:30pm bedtime every SINGLE NIGHT! Yep! I have officially gotten my kids in bed and asleep so I have some time with Ryan and to decompress before the NEXT day of crazy madness in a GOOD WAY of course. 

If you spoke to me within the first week of home, you probably were mixed with emotions on how to read me. I was happy, sad, and scared all in one and you could hear it in my voice and in my stories. Despite knowing God is the facilitator of it all and in control I was totally overcome and controlled by my emotions, rightfully so. Adjustment for any change is hard right? And anything worth something is going to have some work! If it’s to good to be true it usually is. The work behind the reward is inspiring and often used to encourage others. Hardship always has purpose. 

So basically the first week and half for us was adjusting to jet lag, tears, changes, and children all adjusting while mom and dad are trying to do the same. As with any family adding a new member whether adoption or biological. We had some rough days last week, Sunday and Monday kicked us in the butt. Then Tuesday was my turning point….

So we got an x-ray this week and Isaiah's looked fairly good. We are going to be running a few other test and I am waiting on the list to get into a specialist in Columbus, Ohio for Isaiah. My gut says to go that travel route, so I am following my gut. One thing I have learned is that when we are praying for something, our GUT is what He often uses to lead along with doors opening and closing. I have also learned a lack of peace means DOOR CLOSED. So being confident in that decision is what I have finally come to grasp. He leads with His spirit in us and the gut is our first cue, especially as a mother making decisions for her children. So that’s my feeling and I am rolling with it. That gave me some hope. Now the process of waiting begins. I have learned not to limit God, because it is in the facts, reality, and even the opinions from others that sometimes it is easy to just accept what we think is the outcome. THIS time I AM NOT! I am believing that if we are suppose to get into that doctor, which I feel strongly by faith we are, then I will wait. I know the reality is it could be 7 months but I also won't limit God because it could be 7 weeks, who knows. I am trusting....BUT would you believe….in the process of waiting God connected me an awesome mother states away who has been dropped into my life, a woman I met through her blog because she adopted and had similar situation as us, a pediatric nurse, who has been amazing and so supportive. She has been on the phone, text, and just all around been an encourager to me. She has guided me in wisdom, knowledge, and even some helpful solutions for Isaiah. This IS NOT by accident that we met. I am so thankful for her!!!! I was so humbled in being reminded ONCE AGAIN, God is working out the details for our family and sweet Isaiah. 

Would you ALSO believe that in the process of talking to a family member this week, that family member sent off an email to a friend who replied this: “...small world I worked closely with that doctor and know him well….”. WHAT ARE THE ODDS? WHAT ARE THE ODDS??? Ok I am once again understanding that in the midst of my fear and uncertainties…GOD KEEPS REASSURING ME… 'I am writing a story and if you will sit back and trust, I will take care of every single detail.’ Ok. I’ll sit back. It’s not easy, but your way is better than mine (I will keep saying it over and over until I fully, whole heartedly, strongly, boldly, believe it)….YOU ARE A HEALER and I know without a shadow of doubt that YOU CAN AND WILL heal this precious boy. Healing comes in all forms instant, slowly, through peace, through comfort, etc…. Isaiah will THRIVE. I know that.

My favorite reminder....
Isaiah 25:1  - O Lord, I will honor and praise your name, for you are my God. You do such wonderful things! You planned them long ago, and now you have accomplished them.

In the meantime, I will rest and enjoy watching the story unfold of how my family is slowly but surely letting our hearts bind in this really amazing new way. It’s a process. I love in the mornings when Isaiah sees me and his EYES LITERALLY LIGHT UP AND HE SAYS HEYYYY and he is so excited, it makes my heart flutter now. Ahhhh I was waiting for that and now I get those precious moments every morning.  I love seeing Isaiah open his arms wide to hug me and he squeezes me like he knows YOU'RE MY MAMA! – it’s a beautiful thing to see he has bonded so quickly to me, it’s an answered prayer no doubt! Bonding takes some people short times and others longer but GOD IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL. He is the author of my story, I am learning to surrender the pen daily, which is hard but worth it…Keep writing my heavenly father keep writing…..

TIL NEXT TIME!